no…
that’s not what i want. i don’t want you out of my life. i don’t want you to hurt me. but i don’t want those shades of grey. i’m not going to push you away. im going to do my own thing. you’re going to do yours. but when we want to do something together, then we can do it. i agree with louis, but i don’t at the same time. i DON’T want us to end up like him and ate lhea. i’m accepting that you wanna do your thing. im accepting everything that’s happened between us. i know what you want. but i don’t want us to get any further than we already are. i WANT to be your friend. i don’t want us to just disappear from each others lives like you meant nothing to me and i meant nothing to you. yeah, its going to be hard for me to “get over you”. but if that’s what you want….then i’ll do it. i will NEVER fully get over you. but i’ll continue on with life. a life with you in it though. i’ve already had you away from my life long enough. i want us to have all of the fun that we’ve always wanted to have. and if that means only as friends, then it’ll only be as friends. cause i would rather have that, than nothing at all. and as much as i love louis, he still doesn’t understand ME. no one does. but if ANYONE would, it would be you. we’re unique. our relationship is different. i’ve always told you that. so i don’t want you to completely follow what he says based off of HIS experiences. it’ll hurt. A LOT. and you’re right. i WILL be sad and depressed till everyone starts hanging out with me. then i’ll get better. but you’re STILL and will ALWAYS be my best friend. and i intend to keep it that way. i love you jennifer. and i always will.
